Monday, August 16, 2010

Should I divorce because I’m not in love?

I met my husband at a church back home in the Middle East. I was 17 at the time and had never been in a relationship before. All I did was study and take care of the house (I had a stepmother who made me do everything). When I met my husband we made it clear that we were “just friends”, two believers that could talk and share thoughts and be friends. I was in no way attracted to him which wasn’t an issue because I looked at him as a friend only. Anyway, we started going out more and I noticed that he wanted more than just being friends. He took me to their house one day so we could practice some songs and when we were in his room, he made me take my cloths off (literally) and promised he wont do anything, sure enough though he raped me. I didn’t know how to react since this was a trusted friend who was also a believer. I lost my virginity, and that was the end of the world for me. In our culture, no virginity meant no marriage. I couldn’t tell my father about this and I really had no one I could trust enough to tell anything. I didn’t talk to him for a while until he contacted me and begged me to forgive him and told me he was out of control and that he would do anything to take it back if he could. Thinking that I had no other choice in life (how naïve of me at the time) and thinking that at least he loved me and was otherwise a good man, I decided to marry him within a few months and we left the country. I’ve been in US for over 8 years now and have been going to collage and will be transferring to Davis next fall. He has changed a lot and I have no reason to be with him, I’m not in love with him, I’m not attracted to him, and I have completely different values for life and my future in general. I have no family here and I have a 3 year old daughter whom I adore. I get a lot of attention from guys outside and I’m still young and I find myself attracted to some guys at times, but feel imprisoned. I feel like my right to fall in love, make love and be emotionally and physically satisfied has been taken away from me. Every time I have sex I feel like I’m being raped, he on the other hand is very attracted to me and enjoys it. I feel like I’m sacrificing my happiness for his and my daughters and I don’t know how long I could take it. I’m so afraid that I might give in to temptations someday and get in to affair. I feel so helpless; please give me your thoughts.Should I divorce because I’m not in love?
I think you will not be able to divorce him and walk away. He will keep your 3 year old daughter from you. If you had no children, you could make the break from him. However, my guess is he will be vindictive and make you stay in the marriage or lose custody of your daughter. Think about it carefully. You should have never had the daughter or married him. He has controlled you for years and you don't even realize it.Should I divorce because I’m not in love?
I think you should get a divorce. Life is too short to have to be in a situation that only makes the other person happy. You are not stuck, take your daughter and leave!
Quick and easy answer. DIVORCE
god says this:


Although God hates divorce, He loves the divorcee and will help all who call upon Him. He wants to teach us how to love the way He loves. The definition of true love is ';God is Love.'; Unless God is brought into a marriage they will never experience true love. People can experience an emotional feeling we call ';love';, however this is only one aspect of love in a marriage. The kind of love that is needed for any marriage to be successful is the the God kind of love because this love is not a selfish love. God's kind of love, loves even when that love is not reciprocated. One attribute of love is faithfulness and loyalty. A Christian marriage is based on trust in God and each other. believe in god though any thing

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